Wednesday, March 29, 2017

DIA... LELAKI ITU? _ (7)

"Woi!" sergah Fika. Aku mengucap isgtifar. Bertuah punya budak!

"Ko berangan apa ni?" soal Fika. Aku hanya tersenyum sambil mengambil gelas minuman yang dihulurkan.

"Tak adalah. Rasa macam kekok, macam pelik... Semua dah berubah. Banyak dah berubah..." jelasku.

"Kau bercakap macam masa ni tak berjalan. Memang banyaklah berubah, kita ni bukannya makin muda. Kau tengok diaorang, kebanyakannnya bawa anak-anak. Dah bersekolah pula tu. Aku dengan kau ni bawa anak tekak je lah yang mampu..." rungutan Fika membuatkan aku tertawa.

"Zara dengan Atie tak datang ke?" soal aku dan menoleh sekeliling. Masing-masing sibuk berborak. Segala kisah diungkit kembali.

"Entah aku pun tak tahu. Tapi semalam Atie kata dia datang kan, tapi mungkin lambat. Cuma Zara, dia tak aktif lagi ke guna facebook? Senyap jer semalam. Aku stalk facebook dia dah tak update setahun yang lepas. Lama tu..." ujar Fika membuat aku teringat tentang Zara. Sejak dia berkahwin terus senyap tanpa khabar berita.

"Kau tahu nombor telefon dia? Dia tinggal kat mana sekarang?" soal aku ingin tahu.

"Tak, aku baru nak tanya kau soalan yang sama. Last aku jumpa dia waktu wedding dia. Kau datang?" soal Fika sambil melambai kearah seseorang.

"Datang, tapi lambat. Majlis dah nak abis baru aku sampai..." balasku sambil melambai kearah yang sama dengan Fika.

"Ingat kau tak datang..." ujar Fika. Atie yang berlari anak kearah kami tercunggap-cunggap. Kepenatan. Hal maklumlah, faktor usia.

"Datang, mana boleh tak datang. Rindu wei aku kat korang..." ujar Atie dan memeluk kami berdua. Tergamam seketika. Kekok bila dah lama tak berjumpa.

"Aku pun rindu juga... Kau dari mana ni?" soal Fika bila memandang Atie atas ke bawah.

"Aku baru balik kerja terus ke sini. Kalau balik rumah tukar baju memang tak sempat lah aku jumpa kau berdua. Issyy, tak sempat..." ujar Atie. Aku dan Fika hanya tergelak melihat reaksi Atie.

"Patutlah aku bau ubat..." usikku.

"Alah kau ni, mengata aku lah tu. Mentang-mentanglah aku kerja kat hospital. Jumpa aku jer bau ubat ya? Padahal sebelum datang aku dah sembur seguni minyak wangi. Mana adanya bau ubat lagi?" bidas Atie.

"Seguni? kau biar betul?" soal aku terperanjat.

"Bahasa melayu kau berapa hah? Minyak wangi kau pakai guni?" tambah Fika.

"Eh tak boleh eh pakai guni? Aku gurau jer..." kata-kata Atie membuat kami tergelak kembali.

"Zara mana?" soalan Atie membuat aku dan Fika saling berpandangan.

"Aku dengan Fika pun tak tahu. Kau tahu dia duduk mana sekarang?" soalku. Atie hanya menggeleng.

"Korang tak ada nombor telefon dia?" soalan Atie kali ini disambut dengan gelengan oleh kami pula.

"Aku ada terserempak dengan mak dia hari tu. Tapi entah lah. Macam pelik aku tengok bila aku tanya tentang Zara..." cerita Atie.

"Apa yang pelik?" soal Fika ingin tahu.

"Tak tahulah nak cakap macam mana ya. Bila aku tanya pasal Zara dia senyum jer lepas tu terus tukar cerita lain..." ujar Atie.

"Diaorang bergaduh kot. Manalah tahu dulu Zara kahwin mak dia tak suka..." ujar Fika pula.

"Tak kan lah, aku kan pengapit dia. Dari nikah sampai majlis habis, mak dia nampak happy je..." ujar Atie lagi.

"Habis kenapa dia macam tu?" soal Fika lagi membuatkan Atie menggaru-garu kepalanya yang tidak gatal.

"Mak dia masih duduk rumah lama ke?" soalku.

"Agaknya lah. Kenapa?" soal Atie pula.

"Nak ikut aku pergi jumpa mak dia?" pelawaku.

"Nak buat apa? Kau ni tak kan nak pergi tanya mak dia direct?" Atie memandang aku seperti tidak percaya.

"Kau ni pun tak akan lah aku nak datang terus tanya dia, Auntie gaduh dengan Zara ke? Kenapa Auntie gaduh? Beritahulah saya, Beritahulah saya... Kau biar betul! Aku tahu lah apa yang aku nak buat nanti..." Aku memandang Atie geram. Lima minit pertama tadi kami memang agak kekok, tapi lepas lima minit tadi semuanya seakan kembali seperti sepuluh tahun yang lepas.

"Kau nak buat apa?" soal Atie binggung.

"Aku nak tanya Zara sekarang kat mana, nombor telefon dia ke, alamat rumah dia ke. Korang tak nak tahu ke dia kat mana? Buat apa? Anak dah berapa?" Soalku.

"Tak macam busybody ke?" soal Atie lagi.

"Kau ni Atie, macam-macam lah. Nak ke tak nak?" soal aku sambil memandang tepat muka Atie dan Fika.

"Bila kau nak pergi?" soal Fika.

"Sebelum aku balik..." jawabku.

"Bila kau balik?" soal Fika lagi.

"Malam ni..." jawapanku membuat Fika menepuk dahinya dan Atie terkedu.

"Cik Sha oi, ni pun dah nak masuk waktu Asar. Pukul berapa kau nak pergi, pukul berapa kau nak balik?" soal Fika geram.

"Balik dari sini kita singgah lah kejap. Bukan jauh sangat. Kau naik kereta aku, nanti aku hantar kau balik sini semula..." cadangku. Fika dan Atie berfikir sejenak.

"Aku tak boleh. Aku kena ambil anak aku kat rumah pengasuh. Suami aku kursus..." laju Atie menjawab bila teringat anaknya.

"Aku tak kisah..." Fika bersetuju. Aku tersenyum gembira.

"Tapi sebelum tu, kau ada nampak Abon?" itu tujuanku ke sini sebenarnya. Menjejaki Abon.

"Abon? Kau ada janji nak jumpa dia ke?" soal Fika sambil turut terjengah mencari Abon. Atie hanya terpinga-pinga.

"Tak adalah, saja cari dia. Dah lama tak jumpa kan..." balasku.

"Korang cari sapa?" tegur satu suara membuatkan aku dan Fika serentak menoleh ke empunya suara.

"Cari Aa..." dengan pantas aku menyepak perlahan kaki Fika. Kata-katanya juga terhenti bila terpandang pasangan bahagia didepan kami.

"Eh, korang bila sampai? Tak nampak pun tadi..." celahku.

"Baru juga, maklumlah ada anak ni kan. Janji pukul dua, pukul tiga baru sampai..." Helmi cuba berlawak tetapi tidak disenangi oleh isterinya.

"Korang pergilah sana, Kawan-kawan kita masih ramai lagi duduk kat sana, pasti mereka suka bila nampak kau" bukan nak menghalau cuma risau bila terpandang wajah isterinya yang sudah masam mencuka.

"Cikgu Liana... Achik Sha kenal ke dengan dia?" soalan Aqil terngiang kembali.

"Liana mana ni? Sekolah Achik Sha ramai tau nama Liana..." jawabku.

"Tak adalah, Cikgu Liana tu kuat cemburu. Ramai yang cakap Cikgu Helmi kena transfer ke sekolah Aqil sebab bini dia kuat cemburu..." beria-ia Aqil berkata membuatkan aku ingin tahu.

"Tak baik buat cerita Aqil...." tegurku.

"Mana ada Aqil buat cerita. Baru bulan lepas bini dia datang serang Cikgu Helmi kat koperasi sekolah. Katanya Cikgu Helmi mengayat budak yang kerja kat situ. Kecoh satu sekolah... Kesian Cikgu Helmi, pasti dia malu..." cerita Aqil lagi.

"Cantik tak Liana tu?" soalku ingin tahu.

"Cantik juga. Tapi tak boleh challenge Achik kesayangan Aqil..." Aku membaling bantal ditangan tepat kemukannya. Mengaduh kesakitan Aqil menyebabkan ibu memandang aku geram.

"Orang tanya betul-betul, dia jawab main-main. Nak apa bodek Achik ni?" soalku geram. Aqil dan perangai mengadanya memang sudah masak dengan aku.

"Pizza Achik Sha... laparlah..." Baru aku kata, dah mulalah mengadanya.

"Oi, apasal kau tak tanya Helmi je pasal Abon..?" soal Fika sambil menampar lenganku. Sakit dowh!

"Tak best lah tanya depan Liana..." ujar aku sambil mengusap lenganku yang sakit.

"Tu Liana kan? Budak kelas aku kan? Apahal dia buat macam tak kenal aku jer?" soal Atie yang masih merenung Liana dari jauh.

"Ya Liana, budak kelas kau. Kalau dia tak tegur, apasal tak kau jer yang tegur dia dulu..." kata-kataku membuatkan Atie mencebik.

"Aku senyum kat dia pun tak dibalas. Kalau aku tegur dia cakap tak kenal, tak ke malu aku nanti?" ucap Atie geram.

"Dia memang macam tu ke dari dulu?" soal Fika.

"Agaklah, tapi belum tahap kritikal lagi macam ni..." jawabku selamba.

"Macam cantik sangat... Macam dia sorang aje ada laki..." cebik Atie.

"Aku rasa Abon tak mungkin datang kot. Sebab family dah pindah balik kedah tau..." beritahu Fika.

"Kedah? Jauhnya... mana kau tahu?" soal aku terkejut. Bila masa dia pindah?

"Dia kan memang asal orang Kedah. Ayah dia kan polis. Bila bersara balik kampung sendirilah... Mak cik aku kan dulu berjiran dengan dia..." ujar Fika lagi.

"Owh..." terlopong mulut aku dan Atie mendengar.

"Jadi apa kena mengena dengan Liana?" soalan Atie membuatkan aku dan Fika macam nak pitam.

"Sejak bila dia menjangkit perangai kau ni?" soalku kepada Fika.

"Bukan akulah, Zara..." bidas Fika pula.

"Ya ke? Dah lah jom... kalau layan Atie ni makin lama boleh kena darah tingi..." ucapku sambil bangun dari duduk. Fika dan Atie turut bangun bersama.

Selepas bertukar-tukar nombor telefon dan berpelukan. Aku dan Fika terus menuju ke rumah Zara manakala Atie menyambung tanggungjawabnya sebagai seorang ibu dan isteri yang mithali. Pelik benar bunyinya kan?

Sabar - Ismail Izzani






Jangan menangis, sayangku
Ini hanyalah sementara
Berdoalah, 
Pada Yang Esa
Terus menahan sabar
Agar bahagia di sana

Mungkin kau tak pernah sedar
Bukalah mata dan dengar
Dengarkan lagu ku,
Ku cuba untuk lepaskan
Luahan hati ini
Ku disakiti...
Namun jua kau sedar...
Kau tersakiti

Jangan menangis, sayangku
Ini hanyalah sementara
Berdoalah, 
Pada Yang Esa
Terus menahan sabar
Agar bahagia di sana

Now i’m all alone in the dark
Why should I lose you when I needed you the most,
The best is the best, the past is the worst
Just let it go, just let it go, no….
Why is it hard for you to see
When everything I've done is for you and me

Ku disakiti
Namun jua kau sedar
Kau tersakiti

Jangan menangis, sayangku
Ini hanyalah sementara
Berdoalah, 
Pada Yang Esa
Terus menahan sabar
Agar bahagia di sana

Jangan pedulikan
Teruskan berjalan
Biar waktu pisahkan kita
Walau bukan selamanya….

Jangan menangis, sayangku
Ini hanyalah sementara
Berdoalah, 
Pada Yang Esa
Terus menahan sabar
Agar bahagia di sana


I Wanna Grow Old With You - Westlife







Another day
Without your smile
Another day just passes by
But now I know
How much it means
For you to stay
Right here with me

The time we spend apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurts so bad I can't take it any longer

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing in everything you do
I wanna grow old with you

A thousand miles between us now
It causes me to wonder how
Our love tonight remains so strong
It makes our risk right all along

The time we spend apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurts so bad I can't take it any longer

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing in everything you do
I wanna grow old with you

Things can come and go I know but
Baby I believe
Something's burning strong between us
Makes it clear to me

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing in everything you do
I wanna grow old with you

STEP - 04 | The Day!


If not Ava, if another women… 
Are you thinking Luke willing unfaithful on you?
Don’t you trust your love? Your marriage…?

Mia sat on the balcony. She remembered Zoe words last night.

Did I don’t believe Luke? Luke…
Our love, our marriage…
He always defends all of that…
He was always there…
Why I don’t believe him? Why don’t trust my love? Why I feel insecure?

“Arghh!!!” Mia screams. Tears flowed. She wiped her tears gently before get up and walks into her bedroom.

Mia steps stopped when saw Luke was staring right at her face. She turned away and sat on the edge of the bed.

“Where are you going? In this early morning?” Mia asked when notice Luke ready dressed.

“Have some work to do…” says Luke. He still looked at Mia face like knew something was not right with his wife.

“Mia…” Luke called softly but his gravelly voice sounds like quite firmly.

“I want grab some coffee, you want it?” Mia asked. She wanted to get away from Luke sharp gaze and her afraid if Luke noticed something. She did not want any fights between them at this time. She needs time…

“No, thanks” told Luke. He just look Mia that walks away leaving him.

“Don’t forget this night, we have dinner together” Luke reminds Mia who busy take something in the kitchen.

“Remember?” Luke asked when Mia still keeps silent. Mia looked at him and just nodded.

"I want to go now. Take care of yourself. You look gloomy today," Luke said and walked out. But he stopped suddenly and looked back to Mia.

 “If there is anything wrong, and you want to tell ... you know I'm always there, right?” Luke asked.

Mia raised her face, pale. She tries to smile. Stiff.

“Nothing maybe I’m just tired” told Mia. Luke just nodded before walks away.

Mia just watching Luke turned away from her and walked away. The atmosphere was quiet, Luke shadow also missing, without conscious her tears flowing.

“Is that my fault? He seems very upset. What should I do? I still love him, our marriage… I need him. I need his love more than he needs me… What should I do? Mia sobbed alone.




***




“Zoe!” Lex shouts.

“What!” Zoe shouts at him back.

“Emm, nothing…” told Lex.

“Lex!” Zoe shouts again and looks to Lex beside her.

“What? I'll just miss want call your name, is that wrong?” Lex pretends annoyed.

“Lex please, i try to concentrate right now, please…” says Zoe resentful.

“Concentrate? Honey, what is very interesting about this film? I don’t get it…” told Lex still nagging.

“Argh… Lex! Please!” Zoe threw a pillow in his hand. Quickly Lex brushed of the pillow.

Beeps…

Zoe and Lex looked at each phone.  They get a new message.


Hi all, just for your update,
Preparations are almost complete.
Just a few small things only, don’t worry, I can manage it...
Prepare yourself ... tonight we're going to have fun!
See all of you this night…


“Why you don’t look happy?” Lex asked when see Zoe just stare her phone.

“Who’s said that?” Zoe asked.

“Me…” says Lex and pointed a finger in his face.

“Why you said like that? Of course I’m happy for them” Zoe said and sighed.

“Look that face, are you sure honey?” Lex asked again and smile.

“I’m happy but how can I laugh when see Mia crying like last night? I feel uneasy right now. Should I'll be happy? Or should I’m sad?” told Zoe and leaned her head on Lex shoulder.

“Don’t worry honey. I think Luke can handle it. Believe me…” told Lex. He put his hand on her hair and stroked it.

“Well honey, I already told Luke he can take a holiday. I will manage and take care of the company until he was back. So, he should don’t worry about that, right?” told Lex while playing with Zoe hair.

“Seriously? You do that…?” Zoe going up and asked happily.

 “Of course I did” Lex said and smiles proudly.

”Oh dear, I’m so proud of you” Zoe give her compliment and kiss Lex cheeks.

“Of course you must…” Lex teased her.

“Arrogant Boy!” says Zoe.

“What!” Lex asked resentful.

“Nothing…” told Zoe and kiss his cheeks again.

“Okay, so that’s for what? What compliments you want give to me again?” Lex said happily then kiss Zoe forehead. Zoe just smiles happily.

They just keep silent a few minutes.

"Lex, I just want you to know I will be faithful by your side no matter what happens. Good or bad, I will try to accept it. I will remain at your side…”

“But, please ... please trust on me. No matter what will occur in our future."

"Can you do that, honey?" Zoe asked him. Lex just smiled and took Zoe's hand before gripping her fingers.

 “We will not know what will happen in the future. But I will promise to defend with all I have. I promise for those things. Thanks for coming in my life. Thanks because always being on my side. Thanks for everything… I’m grateful to have you as my wife. You are a prefect one for me…” Lex kisses Zoe hand than her forehead. Zoe tries to hold her tears.


***


Mia stood in front of the main door. Her heart was suddenly felt anxious. Her legs felt heavy to move. She looked around suspicious.

“What are you looking for?” Luke asked.

“Why are we here?” Mia looked at Luke face, still calm as usual.

“Sir, you have to go now, all guests already wait your presence” tell the boy who dressed white and black with a bow ties.

“Let’s go…” Luke lends a hand. Mia finally holds Luke hands and walked together. Her hand in Luke arms right now.

“Sorry, can you wait at me for a moment at here? I must greet them…” told Luke.

Mia looked around while waiting for Luke. This is not only a dinner.  It looked more like an event or party for her. Why Luke bring her here? She looked so confused right now.

“Mia, you also here?” someone greet her. Mia surprised when looks at him.

“Ryan, why are you here?” Mia asked. The situation now makes her confused.

"Luke told me to come. Where is he?" told Ryan and looked around.

“Luke?” Mia surprised. Why Luke ask Ryan to come here? Why she doesn’t know anything about this?

“Hi guys!” Zoe greets them happily. Lex was with her also smiling and greets them.

“Did Ava also in here? These looks have something I don’t know happen in here… ” Ryan asks to Zoe. He was also in a state of confusion now.

Suddenly all the lights turn off.
Guests of all that was busy chatting among them were silent.
Mia and Ryan looked confused.

“What’s going on guys?” Ryan asked.

Lex pulls Ryan's hand in order to sit at a table near them. Zoe also does the same things with Mia.

“What's happen?” them asking.

The lights on the stage suddenly lit.
All eyes focused towards it.
Someone was standing there.
She smiles to all of them.

“Thanks for coming. I’m and my family very appreciated it…”
“Maybe have some of you may still be wondering, why I invite you guys here, right?”
“I stand here to make a big confession of my life”
“Today I want you guys let know, who person is most meaningful in my life…” Ava smile again to them.

“Does she was drunk? What she actually wants to do right now?” Ryan asked. Ryan want stands up but Lex prevents him.

“Relax, please chill... hear what she wants to say…” persuade Lex.

Mia also uncomfortable with this situation but she can’t do anything. Her hands were held tightly by Zoe. Mia tries to pulls her hands but Zoe just pull back and smile. Behave!

“Today I want you guys know person is most meaningful in my life…
He so special to me, he is my inspiration who gave me life that I have been looking for …
He gave me the spirit and strength… “

“When I want to fall, when I was so tired, when I would give up with my life…
His someone who is willing struggling for me, willing to sacrifice anything for me…
He also wills to leave everything his have, just because of me…”

“But me Ava Sophie, who loves nagging, playful and stubborn…
Only always give him a trouble.
Like he always said to me...
Hey you a trouble maker! Could you try to solve your own problems without troubling me?” she mocks.

“For my savior, and always are…
The king of my heart…”

“So tonight, special for him…” says Ava and go to the piano behind her.

Ava breathes out and starts with her performance.







“I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing in everything you do…”

“Only you, the only one you…” Ava try to pulled she tears.

 “Ava…” Ryan was very touched with everything happen now.

“My beloved husband, Ryan…”
Thank you for everything you having done, thanks so much…” says Ava and all the lights in the hall were lighted again. Brightly

Someone pushing a trolley over to Ryan while Ava down towards them.

“Happy Birthday…” Ava whisper to Ryan and kiss him.

“Happy Birthday!” shouts all of them. The crowd whistled and applauded.

Ava wiping her tears but still smiles happily.

“Ava….”
“You are truly… truly the trouble maker” Ryan hugs Ava and helps her wiping tears.

“Thank you dear, for all of this…” whisper Ryan to Ava.

While they were laughing laughter, have fun. There is someone still grieving though she is still trying to smile.

“I’m wrong about Ava right? She truly loves Ryan heartily…
A beautiful couple, sweet and happily…
I almost ruined everything…” Mia said slowly but Zoe still can hear it.
Zoe holds her shoulder try to give her strengths.

 Ava asks someone to give her a microphone. Ryan looked at her strangely.

“There are more surprises dear?” Ryan asked. Ava just smiles back.

“This party not finished yet everybody!
Today is not just Ryan birthday but also my best friend special day…” the crowd was cheering when hears that.

Mia was surprised when it felt that someone was pulling her dress. When she looked up there was a little girl holding a bouquet of roses.

“Take it, it's for you...” told Zoe. Although hesitant, Mia took a bouquet of pink roses from the girl. When she tries to ask something the girls already run away from her. Mia looked towards Zoe who being bent to take a white rose from a little boy. She looked around. All those who were there were given a rose. They are smiling happily.

“Everyone has got a rose right?
It is a gift from my friend. As a promise he made with someone he loved.
The total number of roses that will be given now is of one thousand roses which have a particular meaning for this couple…” told Ava.

“One thousand roses?” Mia confused.

“Mia…” call Ava.

“Do you remember that promises?” Ava asked.  Mia is speechless seemed she remember about something now.

“Mia look at here. You know what it is? Allow me to read it…” Ava shows card in her hand before she open and read it.



Today, as the rain was pouring our hearts, with grace and miracles.
All that happened is already happen.
We will not be able to rotate past to correct everything.
But we still have time to correct our future.
I don’t care about your past,
So you also don’t have to care about my past.
The most important is the future.
If you believe me, I will trust you more than that.
Forget the past to find the meaning of happiness.
If you're brave,
If you are willing to be my wife,
Indissoluble bond,
I pledge after ten years we become as husband and wife.
Thousand roses will fly around us.
Proof of our love,
The evidence we've made it through a ten years without sorrow,
The evidence we have managed to create a better future of our past,
The evidence we learn to love each other,
and maybe fall in love truly, madly, deeply without hesitation.
Please accept this proposal,
And I will prove all my words...
Marry me...



Mia cannot hold her tears anymore. She sobbed.
Ava and Zoe who try persuade her but at the end they also crying makes Lex and Ryan look each other and laugh. Oh my!Girls!

Why Luke could make such a solemn vow and keep it for a ten years?
Why he did not remember about the cards and their promises?
Why she doesn’t trust Luke?
Why! 

 “Are you remember now?” Ava asked with her sad voice.

“Of course… how did you get that card? I'll keep that in my secret place... ” Mia still sobbing. Ava and Zoe hug Mia and cry together. All those become audience also sad with them.

"I chose pink roses, not only because you’re favorite color but because someone tells about the meaning behind the pink roses. Love, gratitude, appreciation”

“And most important, it also delivers a message...”
“Please believe me”

All those at their stunned when see Luke walked into the hall with his pink suits.
Lex and Ryan almost want to laugh but they try to endure it.
Luke words make them more speechless.
But the crowd was cheering when hears that, some express impressed with the couple.

“Seventeen roses in your hands means you are my wife,
And twenty roses in my hand means,
 I'm sincere towards you, believe me…” says Luke still calm like always.

“As a promise…
Today, after ten years we become husband and wife…
Thousand roses will fly around us…” Luke said while pressing something in his hand.

Mia was surprised. All those who were in the hall were also surprised when heard an explosion before see flying balloons in the air.

“There is a rose in a balloon!” shouted someone.

“Enjoy everyone! We have party tonight!” Ava shouts. Ava looked at Lisa and Adam who awaits her further instructions.

Music was played slowly before Lisa and Adam doing their jobs.  The presence of singer on the stage makes a tremendous cheer from the audience.

“Luke…” call Mia in tears.

“Why are you crying?” Luke asked and wiped Mia tears.

“Congratulations!” shouts Ava, Zoe, Lex and Ryan together.

“Do you all conspire on this?” Mia asks resentful.

“Not me. I also was deceived” told Ryan and looked at Ava who smiles back to him.

“Luke, what meaning this white rose?” Zoe asked try to change the topic.

“Innocence… just like you” told Luke.

“Me? Innocence, are you kidding me?” Zoe said jokingly.

“Yes, that suitable with you…” told Ava.

“No!” Zoe insists.

“Yes! Why you don’t believe it? Ask Lex, he must agree with us…” Ava said.

When the busy arguing. Luke holds Mia hands.

“Happy anniversary.  Thanks to say yes ten years ago and be my wife…” says Luke.

“Happy anniversary my love.  Thanks to be my husband. Thanks because keep your promise… ” Mia tears come again.

“Only this I was able to have prepared for you.
They help me so much, although sometimes very headache.
You know Ava and Zoe… always bickering, always arguing” told Luke

“Sorry…” Mia feels guilty.

“Sorry for what?” Luke asked.

“For everything I've been doing and think…” Mia said again.

“What do you mean’s about that?” Luke asked again. Still do not understand what attempted to be sent by Mia.

“Mia, Luke… Let’s take a picture together” told Ava and ask someone to take they picture.

Tonight is another wonderful story has been created.
All of them share the same excitement.
Every that hurt definitely will recover again.
Each of the fracture will definitely grow back.
Their faces laugh injuries yesterday closed the drapes.
May days will come more reassuring...



   Without Communication, there is no relationship.   

   Without Respect, there is no Love.   

   Without Trust, there is no reason to continue..!   

Monday, March 27, 2017

Bubblegum , 2015


I call you,
To one, that was a promise that a phone would be used to communicate later.
I'll call you,
To another, that phrase was used to avoid communicating and leave.
They didn't realize that they were speaking two different languages.
That's the reason why people break up.


Rains falls down when clouds become too heavy with it and can't hold back
Maybe that is why...
But when i see rain on the days, i feel like crying.
I feel it is crying instead of me.
It's okay, you can cry...
It's okay, even if you can't cry...


When two people dated and broke up...
Can just one person be hurting?
The person who couldn't tell anyone is already hurting by herself.
The person who doesn't even know he's hurting will hurt later.
The person who neglected that pain is hurting more.


What hurts more than hearing "Why did you hurt me?"
is someone cannot even say she is hurting.
And not being able to say anything but "Do not be in pain"


A love with no fear,
A war with no casualties,
A bright white night sky,
- All things that do not exist.


When one is in love,
there is at least one moment where you feel that you cannot handle it.

If you are someone who lost a first love,
this is reality that you know.
However, it's like children who cry in front of moving dinosaurs.
Yet the children imitate and like the dinosaur.
It's something people fear at it, but can't look away from that.
Though you end up in tears, you want to go closer to it.
And it keeps you up into the early morning.
That's the kind of love is.
A love without hurt... that's something only exists in words.

They said a love that is too painful isn't love at all.
A love that is broken can be so painful.
But we are left with a beautiful song.
When a love is too deep, i disappear...
When break up is deep, i laugh...


When people come across truths they can deal with...
they close their eyes.
In hopes that the darkness will cover and hide everything.
-  Disappear, Disappear.
-  Turn everything into a dream.
Now, i should open my eyes and get up.
Yesterday was a stupid dream.


James Dean said,
Dream like you'll live forever and live like you're going to died tomorrow.
But some people twisted those words,
People live today as if they will live forever,
They don't dream as if they will die tomorrow.


There's understanding that something is so hard you want to die,
but that's different than thinking it's okay to actually die.
You can't cross on a red light just since someone you love likes red lights.
You shouldn't try to match two lives to wrong answer.


There's can't be "What if's" in things
that have already happened.


To lose something and to forget something...
there's no way to be sad about those things...
if the bubble pops, then you can just blow another one.
The small happiness that you feel when chewing bubblegum...
it's not any different from any other kind of happiness.
To us, who have been through a difficult autumn and winter...
and to the gaps that will never be filled...
and there it was,
a new spring was approaching...
That's how a new spring approaches through the gaps...



Because I - Lasse Lindh



There’s a little story
of a night your star’s alight...
It seems a little tired
Maybe it was just a dream...

First time I saw into
your eyes your eyes your eyes
it seized me

Like a dream I’d never dreamed before

I’d never seen a rainbow
closing down my rainy days...
Hate to see the shadows
fading on my weary eyes...

You just come and
smile again again again...
come save me
In the glitter of a spark
I’m waiting here...

In this moonlight on the ocean
Don’t say it’s just my illusion

Because I’ll love you
more than I need you
Now come and to my home
And I can get through the tides
with you for better days

Because I’ll never let you down forever
Can’t you feel my faith
Stay in me
And be near

When you’re lost in paradise
you never had
With these lonely hands
I’ll hold your hands

Because I’ll love you more than
I need you oh
Can’t you see my love
Now I can get through the tides
with you in better days

Because I’ll never let you down forever
Can’t you feel my faith
Stay in me
And be near

If you’re gonna come to me tonight
I’ll sing along your dream
If you’re gonna go to chase a star
I’ll chase the dark away
And if you’re gonna let me in your heart

I will let your love take me back to life

Because I’ll love you
more than I need you oh
Can’t you see my love
Now I can get through the tides
with you in better days
Because I’ll never let you down forever
Can’t you feel my faith
Stay in me
And be near

Because I’ll pray
Because I’m now lovin’ you

With all I am, all my heart





Wednesday, March 22, 2017

Shape of You - Ed Sheeran







The club isn't the best place to find a lover
So the bar is where I go
Me and my friends at the table doing shots
Drinking fast and then we talk slow
And you come over and start up a conversation with just me
And trust me I'll give it a chance now
Take my hand, stop, put Van the Man on the jukebox
And then we start to dance, and now I'm singing like


Girl, you know I want your love
Your love was handmade for somebody like me
Come on now, follow my lead
I may be crazy, don't mind me
Say, boy, let's not talk too much
Grab on my waist and put that body on me
Come on now, follow my lead
Come, come on now, follow my lead


I'm in love with the shape of you
We push and pull like a magnet do
Although my heart is falling too
I'm in love with your body
And last night you were in my room
And now my bedsheets smell like you
Every day discovering something brand new
I'm in love with your body
Oh—I—oh—I—oh—I—oh—I
I'm in love with your body
Oh—I—oh—I—oh—I—oh—I
I'm in love with your body
Oh—I—oh—I—oh—I—oh—I
I'm in love with your body
Every day discovering something brand new
I'm in love with the shape of you


One week in we let the story begin
We're going out on our first date
You and me are thrifty, so go all you can eat
Fill up your bag and I fill up a plate
We talk for hours and hours about the sweet and the sour
And how your family is doing okay
Leave and get in a taxi, then kiss in the backseat
Tell the driver make the radio play, and I'm singing like


Girl, you know I want your love
Your love was handmade for somebody like me
Come on now, follow my lead
I may be crazy, don't mind me
Say, boy, let's not talk too much
Grab on my waist and put that body on me
Come on now, follow my lead
Come, come on now, follow my lead


I'm in love with the shape of you
We push and pull like a magnet do
Although my heart is falling too
I'm in love with your body
And last night you were in my room
And now my bedsheets smell like you
Every day discovering something brand new
I'm in love with your body
Oh—I—oh—I—oh—I—oh—I
I'm in love with your body
Oh—I—oh—I—oh—I—oh—I
I'm in love with your body
Oh—I—oh—I—oh—I—oh—I
I'm in love with your body
Every day discovering something brand new
I'm in love with the shape of you


Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on


I'm in love with the shape of you
We push and pull like a magnet do
Although my heart is falling too
I'm in love with your body
Last night you were in my room
And now my bedsheets smell like you
Every day discovering something brand new
I'm in love with your body
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
I'm in love with your body
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
I'm in love with your body
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
I'm in love with your body
Every day discovering something brand new

I'm in love with the shape of you


Bonus video:
The cute siblings ... 


STEP - 03 | Scandal? Oh My!

Lex finally managed to overcome the phobia, problem that has haunted him a long time ago. Zoe is happy to see the changes Lex grew well. Although no completely, but she very grateful. At least there is change which occurred.

She recalls Lex's message before she come here. Lex asks him to take something in here. He said that a birthday gift for Ryan. Why I did not remember the Ryan birthday's was getting closer? While every year we will celebrate together?

Gold-colored box pretty neat adorned with large cream-colored ribbon. Ryan will surely love it! Lex really good at this matter, he knows what is appropriate and proper to give as a gifts. It was his expertise!

Zoe looked left and right. Find a suitable place for her to enjoy coffee or cake before Lex came to meet her. She sent a text to Lex after ordering drinks.

Zoe phone rings suddenly.

"Where are you now?" Ava asked.

"In cafe..." told Zoe.

"Where? is okay. I know where you are..." says Ava.

"Av... Oh my! She always makes me insane!" Zoe's word furiously when Ava disconnect suddenly .

Fifteen minutes later.

"Hi, dear..." Ava greets Zoe with her smile.

"Hi... what are you doing in here?!" Zoe asked when see Luke and Lex come together.

"Me? To meet you, honey..." Lex said.

"But I have something to do with you, dear..." Ava said to Zoe when Luke asked the waiters.

"What you want? Another drama's again? Are you sure what are you having done?" Zoe whispers to Ava. She glanced towards Luke. She respects Luke as a brother. How they go through together until now as a family is really appreciated it. But she really hopes nothing happen between Luke and Ava. For everybody sake.

"Okay, we should start our plan now..." Luke suggested.

"Plan? What's plan? Plan for what?" Zoe looks so confused.

They look each other and smile. Zoe looks more confused now. What plans are they planning? What is all of this?

Alexander!


***


Zoe phone rang.

"Zoe, where are you now?" Mia ask without greet her.

"At home... why? Where are you now?" Zoe ask when hear Mia hoarse voice.

"I need to see you. Now...  Can I come?" told Mia.

"Sure, dear. I will waiting for you..." told Zoe.

"Who's honey?" Lex asked.

"Mia..." told Zoe.

"What's she want? What's up, what's going on? " Lex asked when sees Zoe's face that is wrinkled.

"I don't know... but I have a bad feeling" told Zoe. Lex just smile at her.

"Don't worry honey. Nothing bad can happen. You know the reason, right?" Lex smile again when Zoe's looked at him.

"I'll give space for both of you to talk. I'll in my workroom. Tell me if you need anything..." told Lex. Zoe just nodding understands.

Half an hour later, someone bell the ring and knock the door. With mixed feeling Zoe open the door.

"Hi..." Mia greets her.

"Mia, Are you alone? Where's Luke?" Zoe asked although she knows that it was a stupid question. Mia just keeps silent. Zoe feels awkward quickly bring Mia went in and sat on the couch.

"Where's Lex?" Mia asked and looked around.

"Lex? Like usual, in his workroom..."

"Are you okay? If are anything happen? " Zoe asked. Mia still silent. She lowered her face.

"I don't know if I should tell you. I don't want to burden you or Lex. But, I don't know who else I can tell other than you. I need someone right now. I really need you to share it..." Mia explains. Zoe holding Mia hands to show that she understood what Mia thought.

"I will listen..." told Zoe.

"I think you also noticed something weird between Ava and Luke, right?" Mia asked. Zoe speechless, how is supposed to reacted with that question?

"Zoe, I know you saw that and you also think that have something they want to hide from us right?" Mia asked again.

"Mia honestly, I don't see anything strange between Luke and Ava. Please don't think too much? Put away your negative mind towards them. His your husband and she your best friend..." Zoe persuades.

"Yeah, I know that. But, the more I try..."

"I can't Zoe... everything is look suspicious for me. They look so suspicious lately. I can't just ignore it..." told Mia.

"Mia please, we not be friends only ten days, not even ten months. We are friends since childhood. What you learn over the years of our friendship? Non-loyalty? Skeptical? Prejudiced?" Zoe asked.

"Scandal... do you think they have a scandal behind you?" Zoe asked Mia again. Mia's face as if affirm Zoe guess.

"Mia... Why must have that thought in your mind?" Zoe sighs.

Mia just keeps silent and holds her head like have something burdensome in her head right now.

"Mia, please honestly to me. If not Ava, if another women... Are you thinking Luke willing unfaithful on you? Don't you trust your love? Your marriage...?" Zoe question makes Mia speechless.

"Mia..." she holds Mia hand, tightly.

"Zoe, I'm sorry... "

"You know about my past. The unfortunate story of my life... I'm just afraid if the same things happen again. How about me? How about my life? I can't... after I give my allegiance and trust. My heart... " say Mia sad. She can't continue her words.

"Shh, please Mia. Luke is not like him. He and..." Zoe attempts to say something but speechless when her hand was pushed crudely.

"I know! Zoe pleases! Don't ever try to mention his name! For me he's already dead! I never knew him!" Mia shouted.

"Mia, relax..."

"Mia..." Zoe try to hold Mia who had begun to be anxious and trembling.

"I hate these things! I hate when I remember that things! I hate myself... I'm so stupid!"

"I can't forgive myself... I can't forgive him..." Mia head down to hide her face.

Zoe wiped her tears. She knew exactly what Mia experienced. A sorrow, a pain... depression.

"Mia... I'm so sorry. I'd have no intention of bringing up the old story..." told Zoe and hug Mia.

"I'm sorry, Mia..." told Zoe again.

"I don't know Zoe... I don't know what should I do..." told Mia and crying together.

Too much of what they had gone through together. Have too many stories, about the joys and sorrows. Some are kept, some are expressed. Hopefully tomorrow will certainly be better.

"Mia... If you know what they have planned for you, sure you will cry worse than this. I'm sorry dear... they asked me to keep this as secret" Zoe whispered in her heart.

Lex just watches them from a distance. He came out from his workroom when heard Mia scream. He worried if something happen. But, he stopped when see them crying. He looked to Zoe than smile alone. He saw guilty in Zoe face, and he knows what Zoe feeling right now.

"That's my girls... I love you, sweetheart... " says Lex.

"But..."

"I think, today... this is my bed... Ohhh...." Lex looking at the workroom with his sad face.

Tuesday, March 21, 2017

Kata Orang...



Kata orang,

Angin menyampaikan seribu satu kisah.

Kisah Sang pelangi yang hadir memujuk Si Awan yang sedang menangis,
kerana nakalnya Si Petir dan Si Guruh.

Setianya Sang Pantai menemani Sang Lautan,
tapi cemburu pula Si Ombak yang sentiasa menghempas.

Manisnya pasangan belangkas,
sentiasa kemana sahaja pasti bersama.

Bingitnya suara Sang Kelicap,
yang ada sahaja serba tak kena.

Berbudinya Si Mentari dan Sang Bulan,
sentiasa berbakti tanpa keluhan,

Redupnya Sang Langit memerhati Si Bumi,
walaupun jauh tak tergapai tangan.

Itu kisah mereka, yang sentiasa dibawa oleh Sang Angin,
Bertiup sayup ke jiwa setiap insan yang masih lagi bernyawa,
Supaya dijadikan pedoman buat semua,
Setiap perkara pasti ada baik dan buruknya.