Tuesday, August 29, 2017

Freneza Vivo - 2.6


“No matter how much suffering you went through, 
you never wanted to let go of those memories.” 
- Haruki Murakami


Zoe looked out of the window of her room.
The rain outside seemed to understand her feelings at this moment.
She looks at the violin case on her bed.
Slowly she sat down and touch her violin case.
Gently her touched the painting on the violin's case with emotionally.

"Dad! What did you do with my case?" Zoe ran to her dad, who was busy try finish his paintings.

"It's nice, right? I'll know you like that..." said her dad with a full of smile in his face. Proud with his work.

"But dad! Nobody do this at they violin case..." Zoe expressed dissatisfaction.

"So, you are the only one. The lucky one..."
"Not everyone were able to get paintings from a famous painters like me"
"Looks, that's my signature..." pointing her dad to her violin case and laugh.

"Dad!"

Zoe's tears fell back when remember her dad.
Memories with her dad can not be forgotten for the rest of her life.

Zoe opened the violin case.
The black violin is still pretty neat.
She lifted the violin and observing every angle on the violin.
This black violin is specially designed for her.
Her name is still beautifully engraved on the violin.
Birthday gift when he was twelve years old from his dad.

Zoe took the violin bow stick and bring the violin to her chin.
It was looked as she was ready to play her violin.
She try pull a bow stick above the string.
At that moment the violin was detached from her grip and Zoe moaning in pain.

She held her hand and cried loudly.
Lex who heard Zoe crying run to get her.

"Zoe, i'm here..."
"It's okay, you can cry..."
"I will be with you..." told Lex and and hug her.

***

"Zoe!" shout her dad.

"No dad! It's not mine!" cried Zoe defending herself.

"If not, why this thing in your bag?" ask her dad and threw the cigarette box onto the floor.

Zoe just cried, looking at cigarettes scattered on the floor.

"Now,  you know how to lie!"
"I don't raised you to lie at me!" scolding her dad.

"Look at me now..."
"How could you... Why are you doing this to me?"
"Is not quite enough with what I've give to you?
"Not enough, until you willing gallivant at the dump place?"
"Tell me!" shout her dad and punched the wall.

"Dad..." Zoe still cry and afraid to see her dad's anger.

"I'll trust you..."
"My whole heart, i'll trust you..."
"Lately, people always talk bad about you..."
"But i'll trust you..."
"You, my daughter, my sunshine... can't do that..."
"You my purely baby..." her dad crying in front of her.

"Why you did that?"
"Why exactly your intention?"
"Get along with the kids who have no future!"
"Smoke, drinking...drunk..."
"Are you want to destroy your bright future!"
"To destroy your dream of being a world-class violinist?"
"You want to end it all!" ask her dad.

"No!" Zoe screams in crying.

"No dad... no..."
"I'd not do that... I'd not touch it all of that things"
"Please trust me..."
"Dad, please..." Zoe begs to her dad.

"Think properly, what do you want in this life?"
"If you really want to forget your dreams..."
"I will break the violin myself..."
"A crumble of that violin, is a shattered of my heart..." say his dad before he goes away.

Zoe crawled to go to his violin.
She hugged and kissed the beloved violin.
She never thought must choosing between her dreams and love.

***

"Jack... Jack!" call Zoe but no one replies.

"Jack!" call Zoe again and went into the room. But no one is there.

Suddenly she heard the sound of human voice from outside.
She run out. 

"Jack!" Zoe called in tears.

"Zoe, what happen?" Jack ran to her.

"What happen, sweetheart?" ask Jack and wipe Zoe's tears.

"Jack why not bring Zoe in, first. We discuss inside..." Josh makes suggestions.

They went in and sat facing each other.
Zoe tells what has happened.

"I'll told you before. This place is not for you..."
"You're not supposed to be here."
"See what's happen now..." told Josh.

"What do you mean?"
"Why Zoe can be in here?" Jack asked in an angry tone.

"She my girlfriend of course she should to be here..."
"It's all their fault who spread the slander about us..."
"If not, it's impossible for Zoe's father to be upset." said Jack.

"Hey, Jack..."
"Are you lost your mind?"
"Who is he? and who we are?"
"Of course he mad when his daughter in love with someone like you..."
"She been born with a silver spoon in her mouth..."
"But how about you..."
"Looked around, dude!" Josh tries to awaken his friend.

"Hey Josh!"
"What exactly do you want!"
"Are you trying to destroy our relationship?" Jack was awake and hit the table.

Rex and Zoe caught Jack from going lunged Josh.

"Jack, relax..." said Rex.

"Jack, please calm down..."
"I'm not be here to see you like this..."
"Jack, Please!" Zoe begged.

"I'll just tell the truth."
"If you guys not listen it, is up to you..."
"But please remember it..."
"She is a girl who has a future..."
"Don't destroy her future and pull her into our world..."
"You're killing her without you know it..." told Josh and walked out of the place.

"I don't want to interfere in this..."
"This is not my problem..."
"Everything is up to you..."
"I'll go..." said Rex and ran to Josh who had disappeared from their sight.

"Jack..." Zoe holding Jack's hand.

"Don't worry Zoe, I will never leave you."
"No matter what they are trying to say or do, I will still be next to you..."
"I promise, I swear..."
"Whatever happen, i will stay with you..."
"And I promise and make sure you'll can achieve your dream..." Jack holds Zoe's hand and swears.

***

Jack walked home. The steps are getting weaker.
He went from one alley to the other alley.
Today all day he goes to find work but no one succeeds.
He has promised with Zoe to change his fate.
Despite all the difficulties, he needs to keep his promise.

"Fuhh..." tired.
He sat on a chair facing the street.
He looked at the road while thinking about something

He is someone who likes to take it easy all things.
He never once thought about his future.
He only works for what is needed only.
He never worked hard to earn more money or try to improve his life.
If he have a free time, his prefers hanging out, smoking or playing the guitar with his friends.
He started smoking and drinking at a very young age.
Josh was always upset with his attitude.
But nothing Josh can do, all his childhood friend living in the area live like that.
Only he who was lucky enough to be a smart boy and managed to enter the elite school with full scholarship offer.

Josh...
an ambitious boy.
Never give up with his dream.
His a very kind and considerate person. He is a very good friend. Brotherhood.
Josh is always there when he needs help.

Josh is also the reason he meets Zoe.

Zoe...
When she smile, laughing, sulked... everything will make her heart uneasy.
Even a day if they not met it will make his going crazy.
That girl introduced her to a new world he never dream to get there.
She very positive thinker, nice person and always support him.

"Shakespeare... Robinson..." He laugh alone when think about that.
He's a homeless boy but talks about poem. Bitch.

Jack saw someone across the street.
He was stepping into a restaurant and greet someone.
His manner and style looks from a wealthy family.
Sir Adam, Zoe's dad.
A famous painter and very influential from a noble family.
Jack feels down.

Zoe with her best friend, Mia and Ava walked into the restaurant without noticing Jack was watching their behavior across the street.
They greet Zoe's dad and his friends.
Zoe looks so spoiled with his dad.
She looks so happy with them.

Can he give this same happiness?
Jack sigh, weakly. He was reminded of Josh's words.

"She been born with a silver spoon in her mouth..."

"She is a girl who has a future..."
"Don't destroy her future and pull her into our world..."
"You're killing her without you know it..."

"Zoe..."
"You don't know how much i love you..."
"I can't live without you..."
"But I'm not even able to see you live in suffering..." said Jack.

***

"Where you want to go...?" ask Josh when see Jack busy packing his stuff.

"Somewhere..." said Jack without looking at Josh.

"But where?" ask Josh again.

"Get your nose out of my business!" shrieked Jack.

"Jack! Are you crazy!"
"I'll heard you want to follow Ben and his friends..." Rex ran towards them.

"What! It is true? Jack!" Josh pulling Jack hand to stand facing him.

"What!" Jack shout.

"Yes, it is true!"
"So, what now! you don't want me go with them!"
"Go to hell!"
"Right now, only them can help me..."
"Going out from this poverty!"Jack said.

"Damn bastard!" Josh gripped Jack neck and push his to wall.

"Are you crazy!"
"They sell drugs, robbers, villain!"
"That's you call helpers!"
"That you say you can get out of from this suck!"
"Shit!" Josh expressing his anger.

If before his just keep silent when saw the foolishness of his friend tricked by Ben's word and promises. But not for Jack! Why he can trust Ben's! Whereas he knows who the evil man is!
Why!

"Dude, calm down..."
"This will not solve anything..." He pulls Josh out to calm down.

While Rex tried to calm Josh.
Jack came out with his baggage.

"Jack!"
"Oh, please no dude! Don't go..." Rex try to stop Jack from leaving.

"I'll made a decision. This is my final decision. No one can change it..."
"I'll be back. Don't worry..."
"I'll be back after being a better person than you can see now!"
"That's my promise..." Jack said.

"Zoe..."
"How about her?"
"She know what are you wanna do?"
"Where you wanna go?" Rex asked. Jack wast silent, bowed.

"Josh.." Jack looked at Josh who looking out.

"I know you're mad. I know you disagree with my decision.
But I hope you can help me convey this to Zoe.
Help her to understand what I'm doing this for our future.
Only you whom she believes...
Please Josh, help me ...
I love her. To much love for her...
I'll be back to her.
Hold on to my words, I'll be back.
I want her to pursue hers dreams,
and I'll chase her from behind ...
Please trust me...
Trust my word..." told Jack.

"Why me?
Why don't you told her?
Make her believe in your words...
Why you want to involve me on this?" Josh asked.

"Because... i can't...
If I'd meet her now I'm sure I'll not be able to go.
I can not stay away from her...
This farewell is very painful for me..." told Jack.

"How about her?
Have you ever thought about her before you made this decision?
How does she feel?
Day's will she go through after this?" Josh asked him again.

Jack stumbled upon Josh's words.

"I'm believe on her...
and you..." Jack said and go without looked back.

Josh and Rex just sigh without being able to hold him again.

"Shit! Damn!" Josh release his anger.
***


"Dad! Wait a moment! I'll forgot something. I'll go take it..." Zoe stepped out of her car.

"Wait for a while. She want to get something..." tell Zoe's dad to his driver.

Her dad's just sigh and smile.
He was too acquainted with his lovely daughter.
Clumsy, spoiled but lively.

"Ok, dad! Let's go!" Zoe sit next to her dad.

"How about your feelings?
Nervous?" ask her dad.

"A little bit but i'm more excited.
 This is what I'm waiting for..." Zoe smile to her dad. Trying to cover her nervousness.

"I'm sure you can do it!
You've been practicing for a long time. Your hard work will surely be paid off" told her dad.

"I will try my best.." told Zoe and hold her bracelet.

That bracelet was a gift from her lover, Jack.
Already a month Jack had left without news.
She did not know where he goes.
She already ask Josh and Rex but they also didn't even know where Jack had disappeared.
That's what makes her worried every day.
At this moment she is only able to hold on with Jack's words the night before he went missing.

"I have things to do tomorrow,
Probably have to go out for a few days,
Don't worry, I'll be there on the day of your competition...
Make sure to do your best..." said Jack and blew the last smoke before throwing the cigarette butt onto the ground and stepping on it.

"I'll do the best. I'll make sure to do that..." said Zoe as if whispering.

Her dad turned his head to Zoe's and hold Zoe hand.

"Life is a daily learning process.
Sometimes life throws you a curveball.
Sometimes what looks horrible in the present, actually turns out to be a blessing in disguise.
Whether its good or bad, there is always a reason as to why it happened.. and the funny thing is,
in most of those situations where we feel like we have hit the bottom so hard and might never bounce back, a blessing always awaits at the end of the hustle..." Zoe's dad looked to her and smile.

"Why, suddenly..." Zoe try to say something but her dad keep continuing his words.

"You're a to precious for me...
your birth gives a million meanings in my life.
I'll remember most about those times were that I've felt impossible and overwhelming.
When i'd look at your face, your smile, your voice...
Nothing impossible in is life..." told her dad again.

"Dad's..." Zoe look at her dad with a strange face. She holds and gripped her dad hand when see her dad look sad.

"I don't know why ... but suddenly I feel sad when realize that you've grown up ...
When you said you make sure to do the best,
I'll know you not my little kids anymore...
You're a big girls now.
Sometime I'll feel's you don't need me anymore...
That's the saddest thing for me..." told her dad.

"No dad, I'll still need you...
You're my world, you are my life..." told her and hug hers dad.

"My dear,
Not all in this life will end up like what is planned.
Sometimes it is beyond our expectations.
But whatever happens do not forget to step forward.
Do not let yourself be swallowed up in the past...
Promise me, my dear?" her dad asked.

"Promise?" ask her dad again.

"Yeah, I promise..." Zoe's said and wept like a little baby. Her dad just hugged her and persuade her.

"Look, what are you already done?! Where's my mirror?" Zoe is looking for a mirror in her bag. 

"Oh my face... How can I stand on stage as like this?" says Zoe when see her face in the mirror. Her dad just laugh when see Zoe in anxiety.

"You performed with your violin not use your face..." her dad said.

"Dad's!" Zoe yells, resentful.

"What?!" her dad asked.

"Don't worry. Ava will help you there. She's waiting for us. She can turn you into a super model..." her dad joked.

"What! No!" Zoe yells again.

"Sir, is the building in front of it?" the driver asked.

"Yes, just leave me at there.
And come back after the..." Zoe's dad was stunned when looking ahead.

"Zoe!" her dad shout and hugging Zoe closely.

"Sir!" the driver also screamed and blink of an eye they feel their bodies tossed out.

The truck didn't know where it came from, breaking their car firmly and causing their car to turn around before crashing into the lamp post by the roadside.

All that was there was shocked and swarmed over them.


***


The atmosphere in the front of the emergency room was rather grim.
All that was just bowed and sat silent.

Mr. Harrison, Zoe's father best friends and Miss Elena, Zoe's father personal assistant was been there.

Ava and Mia with Mr. Ethan, Ava's driver just sat silent when Mr. Harrison and Miss Elena discuss about something.

"The driver that had violate them, is drunk and was dead...." told Miss Elena after talking to someone.

"How about..." Mr. Harrison stopped when emergency room door opened and a doctor walked out and headed toward them.

"Doctor, how about them? How their condition?" Mr. Harrison asked.

"I'm sorry...
We tried our best but the bleeding was very bad.
We could not save him..
I'm really sorry..." the doctor said.

"What?!" Mr. Harrison shocked and slumped weak. Miss Elena helps him to get up.

"No! Zoe!" shout Mia and cry aloud.

"How about the kids? His daughter? She alive?" ask Mr. Harrison to the doctor.

"Yes, she lucky can survive.
But..." the doctor hesitate to tell them the truth.

"But what?!
Don't worry you can tell us. We apart of her family right now." told Mr. Harrison.

"She alive but the condition is still weak.
But after she aware maybe she can get some complications.
But it will not be a long, we will treat her and give some healing program..." told the doctor.

"So?" Mr. Harrison doubt there is still something that has not been explained more clearly.

"Her hands,
She left hand have dislocations, and fractures on her bones.
We waiting for surgeon to discuss with her family..." told the doctor.

"What!
She is a violinist. Hand is part of her life!
You should do something!
Mr. Harrison! Miss Elena!" Ava can't control her anger.

"Doctor, she's a musician.
She has a bright future as a professional violinist.
Can you do something or make sure she can use her hand as usual.
Can she play a violin like before?" Mr. Harrison seeking certainty.


***

"Dad's..."

"Dad's!"

Ava and Mia approached Zoe who was still lying on the bed.
Her eyes were still closed although her lips had called hers father.

"Zoe..." Mia can't hold back her tears.

"Dad's...
Where are you?
Where am i?" Zoe trying to wake up but his condition doesn't allow it.

"What happen to me?
Why I can't get up?
What happen to my hand's?" question-by-question makes all of them dumb to speak.

Mia and Ava unable to withstand their grief and embrace each other.
Mr. Ethan and Miss Elena try to calm them.

Mr. Harrison take a deep breath and wipe the rest of tears.
He also in deadlock.
But now it has become its responsibility.

"Zoe..." Mr. Harrison try to calm Zoe who's looked confused.

"Where's my dad?" Zoe's asked.

"Dad's!" shout Zoe and cried when Mr. Harrison still did not answer his question

Dad's!

Dad!

"Zoe's..."

"Zoe's honey, please wake up...
Honey..." Lex holding his wife's shoulder and gently pat her cheek.

"Lex's?" Zoe was awaken from her nightmare.

"Yes, it's me Zoe...
Don't be scared...
I'm here, you with me right now...
It's okay, I'll be here ..." Lex hugged Zoe tightly. Trying to comfort and give spirit to his wife.

Zoe was still trembling, crying endlessly .


“My life closed twice before its close;
It yet remains to see
If Immortality unveil
A third event to me,
So huge, so hopeless to conceive,
As these that twice befell.
Parting is all we know of heaven,
And all we need of hell.” –Emily Dickinson

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Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal
Memories… let them fill your mind, warm your heart, and lead you through.









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